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so this is the 3rd day of our OJT in Upstream Directorate.

and this is heaven! oh..our team are soooo happpyyyy!!

we took pictures, just so you know how happy we were in this place

can we stay here for a couple of year please??

and this is another one:

....and the girls

the last one

yes! took a silly faces pictures before the other saw us goofing around!!

too bad we could only stay here for a week.

haven’t met you yet!

I’m Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
Have Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stopped Keepin Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Lose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Now Someday That It’ll All Turn Out
You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I’ll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

Mmmmm ….

I Might Have To Wait
I’ll Never Give Up
I Guess It’s Half Time
And The Other Half’s Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It’s Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Hmmmmm ……

And Somehow I Know That Will All Turn Out
And You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I’ll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

They Say All’s Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won’t Need To Fight It
We’ll Get It By It ??
To Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Hmmm …..

And Someday I Know It’ll All Turn Out
And I’ll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I’ll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get han I Get

Oh You Know It Will All Turn Out
And You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

I Just Haven’t Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love …..
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet
Love Love Love …..
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

Mr. Buble!

betina galak??

Last saturday was a WOW day.. Too many things happened in a flash it keeps me blurry.

First thing first, about him. He finally told his girlfriend about our affair, and guess what? The girl friend sent me a “very nice” message on my facebook. She accused me for flirting with his boyfriend and had a habit of seducing men. I’m not being defensive here, because, indeed, I had kissed and hugged her boyfriend, and many more in between, but I can’t accept the fact that she accused me and being judgmental, while, she doesn’t know shit about me. Hey lady, you barely even know me, so don’t you think you can judge me just like that.

Then, I replied her message. Thank God I have Dina as my “lawyer” *many many kisses for you darl.. I wouldn’t know what I’m gonna be if I didn’t have you* so both of us composed a simple yet direct message for her. I told her that, yes, it’s true that I’ve kissed and hugged her biyfriend, and I am really sorry for doing such things *I enjoy it, though * then I’ve told her that I’m not the person she think I am. I don’t know what her boyfriend had told her, but all of this could happened not just because of me, part of it was also her boyfriend’s fault. Shed also replied my message. It’s a funny thing that The girlfriend, whose in rage at her first message, became such a goody-goody nice girl, with a very forgive fullness attitude and became polite instantly in a couple of hours, in her next message. Whewww..forgive me for saying this, but, no offense, you’re such a hypocrite, lady.

So I think there would be no more issue between me and The girlfriend, I think we’re done, because I also ensured her to keep her boyfriend stay away from me, and I promised not to contact him anymore.

So, the next thing I did was sending The boyfriend SMS. I told him that his girlfriend had sent me a really “nice” message, and I don’t care what and how he had told her, I just don’t want him to contact me ever again. HA! Got that!

One of those day you’ve told me to be “betina galak”, so now I’m trying to be one. Yeah. I’m not gonna fall down because of this. I WILL SURVIVE no matter what.

And for The girlfriend? I think your man is not as nice as you think he is.

-d-

yeah, i’m such a b*tch, so what??

at least i’m not pretend to be someone that i’m not

just a mistake…

I made a mistake when I let your warm embrace enclosed to my soul;

I made a mistake when I let your lips touched mine;

I made a mistake when I let you stayed on my mind;

I made a mistake when I let you open my heart;

You’re just a mistake, just one, silly, little mistake,

Just another phase in my life

Just.. another…mistakes… in my imperfect life full of mistakes…

hoaaaaaahhmm..

Gw lg di kelas hukum acara perdata. Kebetulan yg ngajar Pak Yahya Haraqap. Yg bukunya gw ringkas tiap minggu bwt tgs Hapid. Yg bukunya gw contekin bwt nyari putusan pas ngerjain tgs Praper. Yg bikin gw penasaran, seperti apa sih org yg nulis buku hukum acara selengkap ini. Eh skrg gw dpt kesempatan diksh materi hukum acara perdata langsung sm beliau.

Tp gw malah ga nyimak krn ngantuk.

Maaaaaap bapak.. bukannya materi bapak tdk menarik, tp memang ga sengaja ngantuk *ya iyalah, mana ada ngantuk sengaja*
he’s really really good at this. Got so many experience. No wonder he could write such a book.

Hail Mr. Yahya Harahap!

ps.
doesn’t help much. i still feel very sleepy

a tale of yellow rose

salah satu dari sedikit kenangan manis masa SMU gw yg tidak indah, hehehehe..
it happened at February 14, 2003. yup, on a valentine’s day five years ago, when i was a senior in my highschool.

valentine, tapi gw ngerasa biasa aja. ga ada bedanya sama hari-hari biasa. yg bikin beda cuma lebih rame aja di sekolah kayak ada acara bagi-bagi coklat gratis *gw lebih ke “minta dibagi” sih*. garing. ya. walopun gw punya pacar. krn si pacar (saat itu) nggak ngerayain valentine. dia sih yg nggak mau, gw mah ga nolak kalo dikasih, hahaha..maklum ABG.

Ok, back to the topic. jadi pas hari itu gw ke sekolah, seperti yg udh disebut diatas, pas jam istirahat dikelas udah heboh aja distribusi coklat. gw lebih milih keluar, nongkrong di koridor kelas sambil bengong dan ngeliatin lapangan *plis deh, sok melankolis bgt gw, ahahaha*. lagi asik-asiknya bengong menikmati hidup, tiba-tiba sahabat gw yg kelasnya berada tepat disebelah kelas gw muncul di sebelah gw. trus kita ngobrol-ngobrol about one thing and another. dia, yg kebetulan anak OSIS dan paskib yg (katanya) punya beberapa penggemar *haiihhh* hari itu udh dapet coklat. trus dia nanya sama gw.

him : “eh, dikasih apa lo sama cowo lo?”
me : “nggak dikasih apa2, kan kita nggak ngerayain..”
him : “….”
me : “gpp sih, udh sering juga kalo cuma dkasih bunga”
him : “beeuuhh..blaguu..tau deh yg sering dikasih bungaa..”
me : “tapi pas valentine gini gw cuma mau satttuuuuuu aja..”
him : “emg lo mau apa sih?”
me : “gw cuma mau mawar kuning. udah itu aja. satuuu aja, gw jg udh seneng bgt”
him : “emg mawar kuning artinya apa dit?”
me : “ada dehh..liat ndiri di mading”

and so on.. we talked about another thing, sampe bel masuk. pulang sekolah gw langsung pulang..kebetulan hari jumat jadi jam 11.40 udah pulang. sementara dia hrs jumatan dulu di sekolah *ga ngaruh juga secara jarang bener pulang bareng*.

sekitar jam 1 lewat tiba-tiba dia nelp, nanya gw ada acara apa nggak. ya nggak ada lah, secara gw dirumah gitu..ada sih, tapi tar sore, gw les di LIA. trus dia nyuruh gw tungguin dia krn dia mw mampir. tumben. ga berapa lama dia dateng deh. ya gw suruh masuk. trus gw tanya, ngapain ngedadak gitu kerumah gw.

tiba-tiba..
dia ngeluarin sesuatu dari tasnya.

yup, it’s a yellow rose.

kyaaaaaa!! surprise, surprise, surprise!!
trus dia bilang

“nih dit buat lo, sori ya telat ngasihnya..cuma satu lagi..lo baru bilang tadi sih.. coba kalo dari kmaren-kmaren, kan gw bisa beliin lebih byk”

ahahahahaha..gw cuma bisa senyum-senyum bego. tapi seinget gw sih gw bilang makasih, hehehe..can’t erase that silly smile for a couple of minute. seneng. seneeeeeng. hey bro, you may not know it but it was the 1st time for me to get a present from a boy on a valentine’s day, up ’till now, hahahaha..

i think that was around the time when i started to grow on a “feeling” towards you

hmm..hmmm..hmmm…buat yg pengen tau apa arti mawar kuning yg tertulis di mading, kalo ga salah itu.. “persahabatan yg tulus tanpa pamrih”. kalo ga salah lho..tapi kalo salah bisa di cek disini kok

kenapa gw “minta” itu dari dia? bcuz, we’ve been friends since elementary school. he’s my dearest, dearest friend. bagi gw, mawar kuning itu brarti tanda kalo dia juga nganggep gw sahabatnya. and turn out that he is (at that time)

kalo sekarang?

*sigh..* many things happened after we graduated that would separate us. and we keep loosing contact. i’ve tried to, but you just couldn’t do it alone. now i didn’t know about him at all. i didn’t even recognize him anymore. time passes by, it changed us both.

been missing you here, pals..

New Job, New Experience

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gw baru keterima di BUMN dgn laba terbesar tahun 2008. it’s a blessing, yet it’s also a curse for me. sekarang sih gw masih diklat, dan masih akan ada rangkain OJT dan laporan OJT, sampe Juli 2010. nice. i think the reason that God wouldn’t let me accepted in anywhere else before this is because He prepared a plan that was the best for me. sometimes i wonder, did He really think i could handle this? it seems that what i was doing now was not an easy path. there would be rough path ahead, and i’m not sure i’m ready yet. but i believe God wouldn’t gave me this “blessing” if He thought i wasn’t ready for this.

but still, i hate it when people told me how “lucky” i am to be an employee in Pertamina. i hate that LUCKY word. hey, i’m not lucky, you know! i’ve been trying (so) hard! i’ve been waiting for so long before i got the chance. you have no idea what i’ve been going through. it’s not easy, and to be lucky is not enough.

despite all of this, i really thank God for this experience. i just do my best, i just want my mom to be happy, and proud of me..

Between The Wind and Me

dear wind,
how are you today?
have you flown around the world?
did you meet the clouds above?
please, please tell me
did you tell the sun to stay?
have you seen the stars up in the sky?
have you danced with the moon?
please, please tell me

dear wind,
let me fly with you
up to the blue sky above
where the clouds chatted
where the sun shined
where the stars twinkled
where the moon beamed

dear wind,
would you take me fly
with you today?

you’re my tattoo

@J.Co margo

You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you

(Tattoo – Jordin Sparks)

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